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Fear of a blank page.


LAST week I treated myself to an A3 Moleskine sketchbook, it wasn’t cheap but the paper quality is second to none, nice and smooth, I love the yellow tint it has. I’m always looking for the perfect book. And pencil for that matter but that’s another story… with a happy ending I might add!
I have a habit of always drawing A4, I think it comes from only having an A4 scanner, but lately I’ve been craving the chance to do bigger work, so the answer was an A3 sketchbook. Now, it’s not the most portable of objects. So I’ll reserve larger sketches for home.
The drawing above was done in my sparkly new sketchbook, and as I’ve already mentioned, I’m scared of new sketchbooks! Terrified! I have at least 10 smaller sketchbooks untouched through fear of spoiling them, mad, I know.
But this one was different, the first stroke of the pencil was a revelation, like being back at art school, the freedom of the larger workspace is fantastic, tomorrow I intend to more drawing in my new, now not so sparkly sketchbook. See, I can do it. I beat the fear, don’t get me wrong, I still hide new sketchbooks in drawers (They can’t see you from there) but I feel I’m finally moving forward, the blank page holds a lesser terror.

Until I buy another new book…



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Make it personal.

WELL, after a long break from blogging. I’m back. Work load has been a major factor in my absence, juggling a blog and work isn’t easy. But not all the work was paid, some recent illustrations have been for myself.
I found I got very stuck in the ‘If I’m not getting paid, what’s the point?’ mode. I used to say it religiously. Then one day I heard myself, what on earth was I saying?!
I got into this through a love of of art, of the visual, of creating something, for that buzz you get when you complete, and are happy with, a piece of work. I need to regain that feeling.
So I set myself a project, some of the fruits of which you can see above. I decided to do a book of bird portraits. I am a bird lover anyway, paid -up member of the RSPB so portraits of my feathered friends seemed the obvious choice.
And I won’t lie, I’m loving it! The fact that I’m not getting paid matters not. You can’t buy the feeling of creating for yourself and that is why I will always endeavour to do just that, as often as I can.

It’s good to be back!

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